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    "description": "<p><strong>From &ldquo;the most captivating voice to come out of the West since Annie Proulx&rdquo; (<em>Vogue</em>), the furious, hilarious, soul-rending story of one woman&rsquo;s reckoning with marriage, work, sex, and motherhood.</strong><br /><em>Since my baby was born, I have been able to laugh and see the funny side of things. a) As much as I ever did. b) Not quite as much now. c) Not so much now. d) Not at all.</em> Leaving behind her husband, Theo, and their young daughter, Claire, a writer, gets on a flight for a speaking engagement in Reno, not carrying much besides a breast pump&mdash;and a creeping case of postpartum depression. But what begins as a temporary escape from domestic duties and an opportunity to reconnect with old friends soon mutates into an extended flight from the confines of marriage and motherhood, and a seemingly bottomless descent into the depths of the past. Deep in the Mojave desert where she grew up, Claire meets her ghosts at every turn: the first love whose death still haunts her; her father, a member of the most famous cult in American history; her mother, whose native spark dims with every passing year until all that remains is a smoldering addiction. Claire can&rsquo;t go back in time to make any of it right, but what exactly is her way forward? Alone in the wilderness, she finally finds a way to make herself at home in the world.<br />Bold, tender, and often darkly hilarious, <em>I Love You but I&rsquo;ve Chosen Darkness</em> reaffirms the &ldquo;brutal kind of beauty&rdquo; (<em>Los Angeles Times</em>) and &ldquo;mercilessly sharp&rdquo; vision (NPR) that established Watkins as one of the signal writers of our time.</p>",
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